MatNooR

Today will be the day i begin.....

2009-12-24T05:02:00.003+08:00

I should have done it long, long, long time ago. Something not right for me. I should have know it long ago. Not today.

I was that person that you told me, i just ain paying attention to it. I hope what im doing will make me find myself once more.

Today, 24th of December. The day i will have to sit and think of what and where went wrong between us. I'll prove something in a few days time. No promises but i'll do my best. That's what i should do.

Day 1...... Here i go....

Things Never Seems to Go My Way

2009-07-22T20:01:00.002+08:00

Who am i?

That's the big question.
Yes.
Nothing seems, nothing, seems to go my way.
I dun understand anything...

Yesterday, ive said, i'll be matured enough then before, but today?
When everything seems to go well, this happen again.
I dun understand why u doing this to me and not other guys.
Why u can be so good to other guy but not me.

Am i that hina?
Why the chance u gave me now like not even a chance?
Why?

I need some explanation.
I was damn happy today k.
Damn happy.
Just because of that thing that can be settle, u just blow up?
It's not fair.

:(

I dun know what else to do.........
Oh GOD help me.... :'(

2009-01-15T07:21:00.002+08:00

Hey?

Life isnt e same of late.......

Hate my stupid ass chest pain!!!!!

Mitral-valve prolapse or in short, MVP.

how i wish i didnt have dis sickness, how i wish im just me........... Like all my friends.....

Its been a gd 2009 for me...

My ex being my friend, my yiss beloved adeq angkat is msging me too!!

I knw my limits for both. I hope u dun werie too much about it...

Theres a limit to all tat i do, really.

Adeq er!!! She's e 1st adeq i ever had...

Before there's even any gerl in my life, there'e her....

Just ask my buddies......

Khairin? Hmmm.... Great tat im lepas frm being struggle with 4giveness...

All im asking for all my ex'es was forgiveness.....

Tats why i wanna meet all my ex'es...

But there's a limit to everything.

Limit is its just friends.

Not more nor less...

MY DEAREST BABY!!!! I love u.... I hope all tat we are going thru now, we pass it...

I hope happiness will cum our way.

I miss u dear....

K think tats b all.....

Love u all..

Monkeyz...... Outz....

2008-09-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

FORMULA 1 HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss her!!!!

Hehehhe...

2008-09-17T08:34:00.003+08:00

Why am i feeling this restless? Very restless.
Is it true tat wen something wanna happen we would feel this way?

Im fallin sick.
I hate to be sick.
Haish.... pfft..........................

Why am i feeling this way.........................??
No matter what happen i just.... Dun knw....

My life has been great. But y do i feel soooo miserabe still?
I dun knw....

Y do i feel tat u will leave me 1 day?
Im avoiding tat feelin but it keeps coming back.
Haish......

I wish i know wats going on here now.

I MISS U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTT...................

Mwackz....

2008-09-02T10:27:00.002+08:00

Fasting begins YESTERDAY!!!
A month of fasting n e celebration will starts.

Now, i just dun knw if im still celebrating or not.
Alone or with someone special.
Everythings changing now.
~sigh!~

I love Fizah soooo much, never less.
But wat about u? Do u still love me as much as i do? As before?
Wats happening to u?
Is it true tat after tat day, u kene kacau, u said u hate guys. does tat mean me too?

Its after tat particular day tat u begins to start being differents towards me.
6 months, im soooo afraid.
6 months, is how long most of my relationship last.

i dun wanna lose u.
I love u sooo much.

Haish.
I just wanna hug u, right now.

But i cant.
Fizah, i love u, only u now.

Haish.
Where are u my dear Fizah, come back to me e old Fizah.
I miss u..............
:'(

2008-08-30T11:49:00.001+08:00

I miss being with my dear.
We had a lots of talking now, im soooo happy 4 tat.

I just love u soooo much.
U e 1 tat i wanna be with forever.

i love u dear. forever...

2008-07-06T21:15:00.002+08:00

BORING!!! TIRING!!!! SLEEPY!!!

That's what im feeling today.
Hahahaha.

Lepak Ular Gate watch movie all the way.
Lepak kan????

Nothing to do play my psp.
Then ask my dear to call.

That's my routine today.
HAHAHAHAHAHA

I miss my baby!!!!!

Tomorrow lepak!!!
Working night shift!!

Hahahaha.
Im super the missing my baby Fizah!!!!

Kla malas nak type.
Da ngantok tapie lazy to sleep!!!!!

Night!!

Miss u baby!!

2008-07-04T16:00:00.003+08:00

I'm super sick nowadays!!!! Can't wait to take leave end of this mth!!!

Work, Work, Work, Work.

That's what i've been doing & sometimes, yeah, i'm kinda tired.

Well lately, nah, always, ive been bullying my dear baby Fizah.

Hahahahhahahahahaha.

Love bullying her.

But my bully nt sikit, but extreme. hahahahahahaha.

Anyways, ive blog!!!

Wanna go rest again.

Mwackz....

LOve u baby.

2008-06-14T09:40:00.004+08:00

ARHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Long time no see!!!!

Busy, busy, busy!!! I'm so tired!!!!!!

I love my baby!!!!!

Thanks sayang. Love u sooo much!!

Oh yar, i still dun like Mazda RX 8. Lancer EVO I LIKE!!!!!!

Ok, i da update. nak go lepak.

Update more regarding werk soon. Especially e BOMB!!!!!

Loves all!!

2008-05-04T07:39:00.002+08:00

WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!

IM BACK!!!!!!!!

Cisco life is damn cool... but tired!!!!
Hehehe.

Im enjoying my life like never before.
With work, im like busy n nt thinking of anything else.
Love life, been great.
Like before im happy with my dear Fiza.

Guess what been long since ive updated my blog.
Lots, lots n lots have been happening to me.

Have a sweet nice lady whu are crazy about me..
Hehehe.

I just love her lots.
Ver much.

Hehehe.

Now my future is bright, i'll make my life great n happy just like before.

I LOVE MY WORK, FAMILY.
BUT MOST IMPORTANT, I LOVE MY DEAR FIZA.

~MWACKZ~

2008-02-13T15:08:00.002+08:00

Hey all.

Been awhile since i actually blog in.
Well, losing weight n throwing away all the fats in my body of late.

Friday of is the day i'm on duty....
No...
On training back..

Miss those training days.

Valentine is tomorrow.
Wow...

A year since i last celebrate it.
Miss those days.

Sigh...

Newae, wanna be ready for my new job.

Sayonara all.

2008-01-18T07:28:00.000+08:00

Aloha.......

Well... Well....

Been long since ive updated my bloggy.
Hehehe.

Anyway, im sick today n yesterday.
Bad flu & chest starting to act up again.

But anyway, past 2 weeks been great for me.
Let me begin on e 10th....

10/01/2008

Well, my best buddy birthday. Went Marina Square to celebrate at swensen.
Nice!!!!

Had great time with them.
Joke around, & all e surprices for my buddy.

Me, Za, Ash, Sir, Su & Malina was there.
We ate, joke, & just being e old us.
Hehehehe.

U know something?????
I was fasting that day.
It was like, Awal Muharam that day.

Hehehe.
Was fun. Very fun.
e touching part was actually, when they all actually waiting for me to breakfast before we all eat.
hehe.

But seriously, been long since i had that much fun.

11/01/2007

Nothing much happen today though.
Went my auntie house, lepak.

Then met Za @ Nanyang.
Talk cork, relex & enjoy life.

Then went back to my auntie house.
Receive pay man!!!!!
Shocked when she actually gave me 100 bucks just for staying there to take care of e house.
ALOT man!!!!

But was great.
Oh yar before i forget,
Met Khairin again.
She still as pretty & adorable as ever.
Took e same bus with her,
but didnt manage to talk to her.
I wish to talk to her 1 day.

12/01/2008

Well that day, went out with my dear adeq, real sis that is.
Went Nanyang & Singapore Poly for their open house.

Walk here, see here,checking out all the courses.
Some of the courses are great.

Then after that, went town with her friends Ayie & Nas.
Great day man!!!

After that go back home to relex & then out again!!!
Go out with my uncle, nenek & atuk, & not forgetting my sedara that actually like me.
Hahahahhahahahahahahaha.

Went T3, then go eat @ Changi Beach.
It was like 2+??
Hahaha. in e morning that is.

Reached home about 4am.
TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok la thats all for that day!

14/01/2008

This e best day.
Met my adeq angkat.
Went Swensen to eat!!!!

Guess what????
I treat her, her guy n her friend, Aisha if i still remember.

Then after that went to watch movie!!!!
Body 19.

It was great ar.
Except that e ending kinda confused a little.

Hahaha.
Total spent on that day was...........................................
Near to 100 bucks.
Hahahahhahaha.
80 bucks spent on my dear adeq angkat.

18/01/2008

The rest of the week was spent & rot @ home.
Hahaha.

Love rotting @ home.

OK, it was great week for me.
Very, very enjoyable.

Nothing matters than being happy with all my friends.
Being single really make me spent more time with friends & family.

I must say i miss being in a relationship.
But i must also say that, being single is e best for me now.

No string attached.

I miss all of them badly.......
Can't wait to go in camp again.

Then after 2 or 3 mths wanna blanja everyone again.
Kekekekekeke.

Fun!!!!!!

Kla, till here then.
I'll update more some other days.

Till then....

Love u all.

mOnKeYz..........
outz~~~~

PS: To all do try to check out & listen to Didicazli latest song. Seribu kenangan. Nice man.

Relationship ain everything in life, Friendship is everything.

2008-01-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Met my ex!!!!!

Kinda miss her.
As a friend.

But guess she totally forgotten all about me.

Sigh..........

Till when will u treat me as ur foe?

2008-01-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

Hey,

I kinda stress now.

The feelings of death.
U never know unless ur in my shoe.

Comedian McKing died cause of cardiovascular problem.
Its kinda e same as mine.

Fear of death..................

Death..............

2008-01-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

Hey!!!.

Im super tired of late!!!

Go here, go there, go here.
Next week going Ubi, for Cisco interview,
Thursday out with my peeps go Marina to celebrate my friend b'day.
Saturday, treating my dear sis, Deq Mas.

Damn!!!
Other then dat, go my aunt house almost everyday, that minus going hospital, which i ain going.

Happy still ar.
Life goes on i guess.

Anyway got my N.S testimonial yesterday.
SO funny man.

I wrote e testi, maybe tomorrow.

Kla wanna rest.

Taking care.

Clipy monkey!!!!

2008-01-04T07:59:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Life has been tiring for me.
But im enjoying life to e fullest now.

Know why?
Cause i dun knw if i ever get to enjoy it again in future.

Now, all i want to is be happy with all e people around me.
Love all of them,
My Cousin, & all my adeqz, adeqz.

Im happy now so dun worry about me.
When u feel that life is soooo short, u will then realise that all this while u've never done any good.
Therefore, im living my life to e fullest now.

Whether tomorrow im alive or not, that doesn't matter.
U knw why?
Cause everyday is like a new da for me.

Aite then.
Till here.

Ill update more later.

Taking care all!!!.

Mwackz.

Love all

~mR mOnKeYz~
~oUtZ~

Leave life to e fullest, dun regret it in e near future. mwackz.

2008-01-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

Hey.

New Year.

I won't be around for like 2 weeks.

Take care all.

Mwckz2.

I miss 2007, but be looking forward for 2008 to start afresh.

2007-12-31T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hey.

2008 is just hours away!!!!

I wish to get well soon.

That's all.

Taking care..........

I hope to make everyone happy. That's all. & get well too.

2007-12-30T15:51:00.001+08:00

Hey.

IM SUPER BORED!!! Just finish watching VCD.
SUMOLAH!!

Hahaha.

Super bored.
I just dun knw what to do.

I miss my grandparents so much.
Especially my late atuk n nek semput.

Sigh!!!!

Anyway, behind all this sadness, theres a lesson to be learn.

Still remember e day my atuk di mandikan............
After that, everyone was given a chance to kiss him as sign of his final journey.

I? Didnt even kiss him. Yes, i regret it badly.
My ex kiss him.
I, his grandson, doesn't.

Im missing him badly. But yang pergi telah pergi.
He has gone forever.

Anyway, till here then.

Mwackx! Mwackz!

Missing him.....

2007-12-30T11:26:00.000+08:00

Hey.

I cant wait for 2008.

Start e New Year fresh & new, which ill be hoping so.
My resolution for 2008!!!

1. At least to get to Poly with my upcoming results. (few weeks away)
2. Hope there be cure for my chest. (i didn't expect things to get worst)
3. Find a good work!!! (most important if not get to Poly)

4. Give happiness to my family more than before.
5. To change everything about me.

I think thats be all for now.
Need to step up!!!!!

Hehehe.
This monkey will be monkey nomore.

Maybe ape be good. Hahaha.

I can't wait for 2008 to come. A new life ahead of me.

Till then.

Let me just test it out.

~apes outz~

hahahahhahahahahhaha funny seh!!!

May 2008 change me & my life. 2008 will 21 years for me. Grow up monkey!

2007-12-29T13:32:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Well im still here. Alive i guess?

Anyway, been thinking n thinking.

Where should i go after this?
I'm ain that sure.
In fact, i'm confused.

Life has been ups n downs for me.
My health, my friends, my families, everything.

I wish i could do 1 thing n just change every single thing in this world.

I wish i have e power to change my life.

Anyway, that time bbq was great. we really had great fun.
All, except me.

Yes, fun was there but........ Me? Alone, among all.
Jelous of all my besties, but, im fine. As usual, lying to myself.

My friends, Zahira, Asyraf, & Thahisir, they are all i have in this world.
They are, e closest of them all.

My sis, deq Mas, deq Fatin, sis izah & deq Amni, all been great.
Not forgettting kak Su. Dearest god sis ever.

I miss my life, old, happy-go-lucky me.

Anway, im grateful to have all of them.

Whenever im down, i know there's people around me that i can look for.

But i just miss my grandpa. Alot.
Yes, i miss my ex. But i know, she's happy now.

I just wan to have a great life. Not like this. I wan a healthy life.

I hope all this will end soon.

Till here. Take care.

Oh yar.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happiness is all that i want. I hope i could have it soon.

2007-12-26T08:54:00.000+08:00

Hey all.

Haven been updating right? Well just gonna update briefly only.

Sunday.

Went East Coast with my fellow peeps, Za, Jas, Ash, Su, Sir & Lina.
Well basically im solo. Hehehehe. Yeah im always solo.
Newae had a great fun. Eat, play2, den raining, play under e rain, just great.
We all had great fun.

Monday.

Just rot at home. Night, war between parents. Haish.............................
Im beggining to miss my ex. Some how i just got a feeling i had never stop loving her neither had i forget her.

I wish she could treat me as friend............

Tuesday.

Rot at home again. Think of her. Viewed her profile. I just dun knw what to do.

My chest is hurting now. When touched, e pain is unbearable. haish.
My wish to meet Khairin 1 last time..........................

I guess till here then.

Update futher some other day.

TC.

signing outzzz...

How i wish everything i do i could just turn back e time. ~sigh!!

2007-12-22T14:50:00.000+08:00

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2007-12-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehehe. Crazy me. As usual....

Anyway, been having a great time e past few days. kekeke.

On e 19th, nothing happen, nothing great i guess? Just stay home & rot. keke.
But im having a great day though. Just chilling outz.

Yesterday was e best day ever!!!!!!

Before i forgot, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha, dah lambat pun.
Pity all e sheeps & goats. Kekekeke.

Baaaaa Baaaaa..... Mooooooooo.... Mooooooooo.
Kekekeke.

Anyway, as usual morning2 go mosque, then come back EAT!!! Yummy!!!
Went to my grandma house @ 12+, then relex there & again, EAT!!!!!

Know what happen??? When we reached, me & my sis, smell e smell of hospital, especially e smell during my late grandfather was in e hospital. SPOOOOOOKY MAN!!!!!!
But everything was ok, guess my grandfather like greeting us. Kekeke.

Then went back to Uncle Chu house!!!! Relex there & again, EAT!!!!!! Kekekeke.
Then sent my uncle to Bukit Timah Courts, where his e MC for e day. Cool right?
Went back go Sheng Shiong & bought karipap!!!! Hehehe. FOOD!!!!!!

Go back eat e karipap!!! EAT!!!!!!!! kekekekekeke

Then around 8+, my uncle reached my house, & we all went out AGAIN!!!!!
Went to Terminal 3. Cool!!! E place was like, wow!!! UNbelievable.
Then in e lorry we rounding e airport, from T1, T2, T3 & e Budget Terminal. It was just enjoyable. After that, we went to changi beach, then to changi village to buy FOOD!!!! AGAIN!!!

U-Turn back go changi each to..................... EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kekeke. Keep eating only!!
After we ate, we went town, rounding again, watch e 'beautiful' lights.
Fun. Just fun & of course tired!!!!

After that, went Mustafa Center. Hehehe. Lucky never eat.
Reached home around 1230++

Had a great fun with my dear Uncle Chu & his family. Be going out again 1 day.

Today going out again!!!! @ 8 to meet my dearest bros & sis.
Buying FOOD for our BBQ this Sunday.

Be very busy!!!!!

Okla till here then. Wanna rest!! Love u all man!!!!

Guess i happier now then ever. But still, im getting wersen. But im happy

Cheers all.

~signing offz~
~mR mOnKeYz~

Being happy with a fake smile is not what i want, I wanna be happy for the sake of my own happiness. Cheers.

2007-12-18T07:17:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not updating. Hehehe.

Lots & lots had happen e past few weeks.

Anyway, let me begin.............

Ive ORD!!!!! Anyway, ive ended my service like, on e 12/12/2007. Took my ic on e 13/12/2007.
Hehehe.

Best man finish my service, but im missing my station peeps. Haish. There was where, all my stress was gone, all my problems just go away. I miss my encik, juniors, & all my batch guy. How times flies. ~sigh~

Before that, on e 10/ 12/2007, went bowling!!!!!! Yeahnesssssssss...... Uncle chu bo us. Hehehe. Play bowl, & a shooting game. Was damn shiok & tired though. But fun, to be close to my family & uncles. Cool.

Been in & out of hospital too. ~sigh~ But watever it is, dun worryabout me, u knw why? Cause im not. In fact i dun care either. Hehehe.

Oh yar on e 13, after took ic, went town, lepak, then go eat!!! Yummy!!!!!!!!! Was a great day for me & my life. Been missing all this lepak, relek, n chill time with my friends.

Then after that, hospital time. Stupid!!! Hate hospital to e core.....

The rest of e days was hospital, @ home, hospital, @home. BORING!!!!!!

Yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went bowling again!!! Hehehe. Went there w/o caring nor thinking of my health. In fact i dun care nemore. I just wanna be happy now. Thats more important then my life.

Went CDANS Home Team NS again. But, it wasn't enjoyable. I met sumone that really had test my patien long, long time during me & my ex, Khairin. The guy that tried to steal Khairin from me. But watever!!!!

Had great fun!!!!

Oh yar!~ HADY WON E 1ST ASIAN IDOL!!!!!!! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY FOR HIM!!!

I think ill stop here?? hmm. Wait a minute.

Ive planned to stop my nonsence. Im won't fall nemore for anyone. Let Khairin be my last girlfriend, & ct e last person i love. Not forgetting to my adeq. Im sorry to all of you.

Thanks for all those memories that been given to u all to me.Won't be forgetting them.
Writing this with stupid tears, & my chest still hurting again.......................

Anyway, till here then. Hope to hear ur comment. Take care peeps. Enjoy life before its too late.

~signing offz~
~mR mEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!~

Oh yar i forgot something!!!! My adik, Haziq birthday today!!!! I love my siblings soooo much. Happy Birthday ziq. I wish u forever happiness & dun be like me. ~winks~

~Love, has made me realise that, i can't change anything. Even, the feelings of someone. Thank you all. Make it the last time im falling in love.~

2007-12-08T11:56:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Im happy. At least for now.

Thanks for accepting me as a friend as always.

Anyway, ill hope that all be fine. Especially me. There's still much for me to do. Especially towards my buddys n friends.

I wanna be happy with all of them.

Oh yar, met Fauzi Laili yesterday!!!! Lol. If i were a girl i would have like go gaga. Kakakaka.
But happy still. Meeting him n being me.

Went station lepak kejap, den relex, den go back.

Im kinda not well now. So my blog entry kinda suckx.

Anyway, thanks to that person. Thanks for yesterday.

Anyway take care guys. May i get e chance to say im sorry to everyone.

~mr monkeyZ~
~outZZZ~

May our friendship last forever, & may i be given a chance not now, but in e near future, insyaALLAH. winks

2007-12-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

Hey,

I got back from home just now around 4+. Came back from hospital. Got medicine that have to be eaten for e rest of my life if im still nt ok.

Dun werie im fine. Went back home drench. Cuz its raining n i walk in e rains.

But im ok.

I walked n actually think about something. Something dat i know im at fault.

I just hope she would read this.

To that person,

Im sorry. I know im at fault. i shouldnt have bother & distub u at all. Now im lost. Thinking about e side effects of this medicine i have to eat, i dun care. I dun care if u not gonna love me ever. But i do care about 1 thing, friendship.

Friendship is all im asking from u. Nothing more. I hope to start back from square one with u. As a friend. Nothing more.

Hear this topic at e radio just now on e wae back really make me think.

I shouldnt have force. I should have known e consequences.

Im sorry.

I hope its not too late. I hope we be friends again. Please?

Just now this topic of a close friendship, that end up as love. When i think about it, this is wat happening to me. Haish.

Im sorry.

To that lady, please forgive me.

Sincerely im hoping u forgive me.

~signing outz~
~mat noor~

I hope u would forgive me my friend.

2007-12-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Im just getting tired as days goes by.

Am i doing e right thing???
Making myself work like almost everyday??

This is sooooo tiring.
My mind is tired.
My head is tired.
My heart is in pain.
I dun know wats right or wrong now.

Oh God, please help me.........

I wanna be happy, but y do i keep thinking of u?
And why wen i do, ill go on and find werk n werk all day long?

Im super tired. I need my rest. But i cant........

Am i doing e right thing???

Wherever u are, i need an anws. ~sigh~

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2007-12-01T14:52:00.000+08:00

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2007-12-01T14:17:00.000+08:00

Hey,

I finally realise sumting, my body is soooooo weak.

Been busy, i mean making myself busy past few daes. I know its wrong, but im doing this to get rid of my own problems, which ain getting away.

Well, im gonna concentrate on 1 thing now, my life, my family. Others can wait.

Yes, i love Siti, but i dowan to force anything from her nemore.
Love cant be force, feelings of e heart, cant be known either.

Maybe she find sumone who is, like her dream guy in future.
But watever i won stop loving her. EVER.

Anyway, i need to get a job soon, n i hope CISCO would accept me.
Im wanna work out on sooooo many things tat ive left for so long.

I wanna work my body out, wanna chill my bros. especially Ashie n Jas.
Been wanting to learn sumthing from them but, no time cause of 'O' level.

Now, e time for me to improve myself. Wanting to learn, play guitar, n sing with both of them.
Hope dey still remember.

Hehe.

OK den. Till here.

I love 1 person, n be remain e same for e rest of my life.

Chill n outs.

~mR mOnKeYz OuTz~

Loving her always. winks.

siti nur nazihah

2007-11-30T08:44:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Will all this perserverance from me to win her heart really will go on well?

Im confused, stuck, n damn fatigue.

Love........

Why do i have to love u sooo much?
Why cant i get u out?
Why cant i just tell u, 'OK, ill stop loving u.', but mean it?
Why are u always in my heart?
Is there ways for me to hate u just like that?

WHY!!!!!!!!!!???????!!!!!

Love.........

I love u even more n more now.
Am i doing e right thing?

I dun noe....
All advices ive asked ask me to go ahead n dun stop giving up.
Some ask me follow my heart..
But how?
I myself dun noe.

Why is it for e 1st time, im feeling................................... REJECTED?????

Haish.

All i can do when toking to her is say, Im sorry.
Why?????

I dun know. Im confused now.

Lately, all i do is work, work n more work.
Now, my body is very tired. VERY!!!

Doing all this for e sake of trying to not think of u.
But......
Im only hurting myself.
Am i stupid???

I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~sigh~

In my heart i just dun know what to do.
Im crying, feeling dumb, stupid, but i dun hurt. I dun noe why.

1 thing is sure, i love u.
Only u.

Let u be e last for me.
Last before anything.
So, i won giving u up.

Take care.

~signing offz~
~cOnFuSeD mOnKeYz~

ps: yesterday appt n interview when well. today chest pain again. Not enough rest i guess.

I won ever stop loving u, Siti Nur Nazihah, never ever.

2007-11-27T15:03:00.000+08:00

Hey,

I feel down today.

I feel useless.

I feel bad.

What should i do?

What can i do?

I fall in love n in e end hurt myself n others. Is it fair?

In my life, i thought im a good guy, but.... i was wrong......

Tomorrow my last duty. But i just got no mood.

Turning out again for e last time. Turning out Rescue Tender.

For e last time before i go i guess.

Haish.

I love all of you peeps.

She's back. But ain toking. Nevermind.

OKlah, got no mood to continue.

ORD mood gone like that. ~sigh~

~signing offz~
~sad monkeyz~

Falling in love is great...... But...........

2007-11-23T11:33:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Well last 4 days ain at home. Been on stand-by for the ASEAN Summit meeting. Soooooooooo damn hot!!!!!!!!!

It was fun though. 2 more duties to work finally!!!!!! Hahahahas.

She's been gone for like, 6 days oready. Haish................
Im missing her badly.
Although she called, its like a few second and e phone cut off.

Anyway, been a tiring 4 days for me. Didnt manage to go home at all. Haish. Miss home.
I love my room!!!! Im in my room oso now. Hehehe.

But anyway, lets talk about those 4 long days at 2 different place.

It was duty day actually, 1 of my junior supposingly have to go this stand-by, but end up he say no one tells him. Fark ryte???? But anyway, gain experience from this stand-by.

Lots was learn. Happy n hot at e same time. Hahahas. Sleep n sleep n sleep is all i do. Kekeke.
*winks*

I love my CD NS life. Gonna miss those times. ~sigh~

Im happy now. Although im still sick. Hehes.

Im happy n cant wait for her to be back from Adelaide, watever e spelling.

Im bored!!!!!! Thats why here i am blogging. Nguess wat?????

IM SLEEPY!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok den. I gtg... Wanna sleep. Hehehe.

Take care all.

~signing offz!~
~mR mOnKeYz~

can't wait for u to be back.

2007-11-15T13:41:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Im getting ready to go out. But i dun know i should or not. hmmm.

Suddenly i feel like i should just back off. Im not myself. Im in a no mood situation. sigh.

Im so e confused like right now. What am i doing? When will i ever learn my lesson???

I wanna get well, but i dun know how. Can i ever get well? Is this gonna stay? I miss my old life!!

I miss me. Damn i really wanna cry right now. Urgh!! Dats wat ill always do. Cry, cry n cry. sigh. I wish things had been different. I wish i am not be in this position.

Newae wanna go bathe n go out. Meeting Siti n my uncle den be going to 4th Division..

OK den cya around be updating or not soon.

~mR mOnKeYz~
~oUtZ~

ps: sorry to all if ive hurt. especially ramizah n deq amni. sorry u 2. haish.

I wish things ain this way.

2007-11-12T12:44:00.000+08:00

Hey,

hmmm. Im having a mixed feelings. Dun know who to trust, or not to trust. Im confused. haish....

I dun know wat to do now. Im tired, later going find work. But, haish. Am i doing e right thing? I love this 1 girl, but does she feel e same too? Im not sure. haish.

Read that jerk friendster & saw sumthing. Am i like going to hurt myself badly? hmmm..

Anyway, i dun care. I dun know about my health either. Whether be ok or not. End of dis month check up.

Finding work with sis Za later. Im tired. But i have to go n find. If not im broke for sure. Hehehehe. ORD soon mah. So no money hor!!

Eh Okla, i got to go now. Cya den.

~monkeyz outz~

Hope u wont hurt me. ~sigh~

2007-11-11T16:53:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Im back again. & im damn tired!!!!

Hahahas. Just came back from my couz wedding. Early kan? Only 4++. Damn tired seh.

Newae, today she coming back. Yeahness!!!! Happy man!!! Finally get to hear from her. But only got 1 problem, will she get back to me? hmmmmmmmmm.........

Newae today i become e 'bunga manga' man. Kena angkat kehulu kehilih, tired man!!!! Overall was ok ar. Just that it was dull. Hmmmmmm.

Kla ill post some pics maybe tomorrow. Hehehes.

Im tired. Peace & outz!!!

~signing outz~
~mR mOnKeYz~

Glad that she's back. Finally gonna meet, i mean hear from her soon. Lots of kisses.

2007-11-10T07:50:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Well im sooooo tired. Yesterday went to Kallang Stadium, after like 3-4 years??? Hahahahas. Coolness!! Know wart??? I nearly fall twice!!! Damn it.

Anyway, watched Singapore VS Tajikistan. Scoreline was...... 2-0 to Singapore. But wasnt a good game for Singapore. Lousy play & the best part was..... they can win by 6 clear gols if not for e keeper or for e Singapore strikers miskicked.

Overall e match was ok. Here are some pics. But damn its blur. hmph!!!

Inside cab hor!!!

My cute Uncle Cu!!

Abang Kris aS our Driver. Hehehes.

Warming up. Part 1

Warming up. Part 2.

Kallang RoaR!!!!!

People watch soccer dey laugh. Think wat? Watch MR BEAN is it?? Uncle n dad.

Tajikistan player showing respect to e pitch/stadium.

MAJULAH SINGAPURA!! MARILAH KITA..............

Hahahahahas. Hungry mah!!!

Well guess now, Khairin having someone new. Happy for her. @ least theres someone else in her life. ME?? Hahahahas. Im still me. Waiting for my days..............

Anyway, im glad she's happier den before. She matured enough now. Glad dat lesson been learned.

Yeahness!!!! 2morrow she be back!! Yeah!!! I dun know why, but why does it seems i feel people dun like her? If only i can know more about her from Khairin. Hmmmm..

Oh yar before i end. Yesterdat around 2++ am, after messaging Sis Amni n Sisi Ramizah, something happen to me. But till now im not sure im dreaming or not. Hmmmmmm.

Around dat time, i feel like someone was behind me. I dun know what but e "thing" was playing with my back. It was so damn spooky man!!!! People says if something happen around dat time, means evil like, Cik Pon, Poch or watever was there. But i dun know. Have to wait. Hehehes.

Anyway my health still ain good. 1st time im feeling this way. I dun know what else i should do now. ~sigh~

OK den till here. be putting some pics. Toodles all

Before sending Uncle Cu saw this thing at Chinatown. NIce???

Nice????

~signing offz!~
~mR mOnKeYz~

Sok dia balek!! Yeahness~~~

2007-11-08T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Im back from a good to bad outing with my family. Im all alone here. Just no mood.

Newae we were supposed to go to VivoCity in the 1st place but end up eating at e Railway station. The place was..... No comment. Den we proceed to Marina Square. The place was pack with human being. Hahahaha. Of course la stupid! Anyway, lots of cheap stuffs sold at John Little. Cool stuffs i must say.

Den we proceed to Al Ameen to buy some dinner. Hahahas. I bought Nasi Goreng Black Pepper. Dun knw nice or not. Hehe.

Guess who we met today while going Marina Square???? Hahahas. Anugerah winner Aliff. Wat a jerk. Kwang kwang kwang. No offence though.

Now im at home resting. Hehes.

I wish i could met sumone today. But she out of town. Hmmmm.

OKla till here. I talk about my happiness some other day den. Maybe in my next entry.

Till den. Take care all.

ps: Do leave comment if u all have any.

~signing off~
~mR mOnKeYz~

ps: I really missing sumone. Haish........ Wish u'll be back soon dear.

2007-11-08T11:19:00.000+08:00

Alo!!!

So happy since yesterday. Will update more later after back from VivoCity with my family..

Hehehes.

Basically im too happy.

Ok den. Update later wanna go bathe. Tired seh just came back from station.

Not to make u all think to much, im happy coz of yesterday! Sumone say this to me,

"I sayang you".

Kwang kwang.

OKla. Get to u all later. Take care.

~signing outz~
~mR mOnKeYz~

ps: miss her. 4 more days. Thank you for yesterday!

2007-11-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

Hey..

Im back again. mwahahha. Ok today is my Science P. 1. Was ok. Not tat bad nor good. Hahahaa. Easy say, 50/50.

Well, i just find out about her dream guy. Hehehes. Cool actually. Lots of hates. Hehehe.
Ok if i were to judge myself. Im like only 60% of them. *Ceh high seh!!*

But..... I dun have the confident. I hate my health. Why must this happen to me everytime??? urgh!!!!

Ok, here e serious part. She going Genting tommorrow, im missing her. I'll be missing her actually. Hahahas. Won't hear from her till Monday. Hope she have fun & are cool down. hmmm..

Right now, my only decision is to make people happy. Now is the time whereby i have to do good. Im changing but why cant people see it? I feel like crying everytime people only see my bad side. haish....

OK dun care. Hahahas. Did you people read my blog? I mean the layout? Nice n sweet right? Hehe.

I WON'T GIVE HER UP NEVER.

~signing offz~
~mR mOnKeYz~

2007-11-05T20:27:00.001+08:00

Hey all.

Im back with a new link. Hehehes. Well been bored lately. Im starting to fall in love again. Hahahas. Guess who? My ex, Khairin's friend, Siti. Funny right? Hmmmm..

Guess what O level is finishing soon!!! Yipeeeeeeeee!!! Finally stress is over.... Last paper be on the 13th. Hehehehes.

Anyway she going Genting on Wednesday till Sunday. Sad man. But its ok. Anyway, she & i are just friends. But i'll be taking things slowly to win her heart. Foolish monkey.

Im happier now. But still sad & stressful. But im happy.

Anyway, i just wanna meet her up before she go.

Oklah, just giving a test run. CYa around den.

mOnKeYz outz....

2007-11-05T16:34:00.000+08:00

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